Channel from back in 2017 - these codes are potent.
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I was young when I first encountered my inner “demon.”
I didn’t find myself running from her but instead pausing to observe.
I was curious.
So, I listened.
She was cold and harsh.
Her appearance was invisibly dark and her words tasted stale and ugly.
She did her job of telling me I would not be strong enough for the struggles I was to encounter. Or that I hadn’t done “enough.” She tried to convince me to succumb to the darkness, to give up, to accept defeat.
Though I did not believe her, every time she spoke, I froze as poison slowly trickled down my throat.
I too felt toxic when she conversed with me.
I acknowledged I did not particularly like her.
Not at all in fact.
I did not say she could come around here in the first place.
How was she here with me?
I wanted her to leave.
So, I thought to myself-
Perhaps, I will battle this demon.
I will destroy her, and all she believes.
With these thoughts she vanished, she was nowhere to be found.
I tried looking for her but she was hiding within realms I had yet to access.
She hid away.
Yet not to leave, but to return when I was vulnerable, unsuspecting.
I felt incomplete, defeated. Was she right?
But then, I felt her, slowly creeping her hands down my spine.
She was back.
It was then I realized, I was her.
She lived in the negative thoughts that surfaced in my mind when in doubt. I could now see those space.
She was the little voice holding me back from embodying my divine greatness. She was not separate from me, I allowed, invited, and even created her.
She thrived off my fear, fed off my negative thinking and advanced in self-righteous actions she convinced me to commit under her spell.
It was then I let her go. I starved her from ego and allowed her to die. It was a slow and slightly painful death, but I drowned her in my light.
She could not survive as I chose to instead dwell in happiness.
Trust, patience, grace, love.
It is only when you stare your own demon in the face, and understand why you've created its presence, can you release the chains you've locked yourself in.
Liberate thy Self.
